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Originally Posted by feileacan
Honestly, there would be no point for the therapy work if you would submit to her demand. Doing that would completely undermine your therapy. You would not gain anything from that, just delaying the important work you need to do for yourself.
I can imagine that a repair of this rupture would be possible if you both could keep your opinion and you would not agree, BUT the T would really accept your stance as well and stop pushing. She could disagree with you and think that you ought to report but in order to help you and work with you she would have to manage that wish by her own without forcing it on you.
If you think that solution is not possible then I'm afraid that you are probably just wasting your time with her. All these ghostings and cancellations are just side effects when the real elephant in the room is still not properly addressed.
Honestly, if I would imagine something like this in my therapy then I would probably just constantly talk about it until we would find a proper resolution or I would become convinced that there will be no proper resolution and thus there would be no point in continuing with this T.
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I agree with everything you say here and I feel really sad as I actually acknowledge the truth of it.
For a long time I have been ignoring the elephant in the room and just carrying on as if nothing was happening.
I allowed her to push me past my comfort and self support and been unstable ever since.
The part of me that is really attached to t is really hurting and struggling to come to terms with the reality here. The reality is that I am not willing to sacrifice my beliefs or feelings so she can do what she believes is the right thing and her duty!
I think she is not even aware of how much traumatic this has been on me because she has been so focussed on her own needs. This goes deep into my own process of feeling helpless and hopeless and being alone and has really triggered lots of old feelings about me being bad and not deserving to be here, etc...
t is not even interested in that just the logistics of what needs to be done, when and how!!!