The internet is all I have, yup.

After high school all of my friends either entirely left the state or to the other side of it and eventually out of it. I made a couple new friends while working retail, but then they moved out of state too... Then I got my current job, almost made one friend, but she was so busy with getting her nursing degree and her family that we never got to hang out. I'm sure she would have been a great friend for me too so I'm still really bummed that it never worked out.

I also tried to make IRL friends when I first moved to my current city by joining different groups, but I quickly found out I hate people my age in general. They're perverted, judgemental, and I'm too shy to have made anything out of the few who weren't like that.

It's quite depressing though only having online friends. Most people don't see it the way I do, we're not "real" and thus not as important, which is part of why they give up on me so much. It also means no physical hugs or cuddles, only the magic asterisk ones. What I wouldn't give for a real life cuddle...