Dear T,
Were you surprised that ex-MC said he'd still be there for me in a crisis? Because I sort of got that vibe from you today. I mean, I agree that I should probably consider him only a nuclear option. But it still helps to know he's there.
Possible trigger:
As, in a weird moment of coincidence, iTunes shuffle plays the song I listened to the night I tried to end things many years ago, Joy Division's "24 Hours." I'm pretty sure you've never heard of Joy Division. But: "Just for one moment, thought I'd found my way. Destiny unfolded, I watched it slip away....Just for one moment, I heard somebody call, Looked beyond the day in hand, there's nothing there at all....Now that I've realized how it's all gone wrong, Gotta find some therapy, this treatment takes too long. Deep in the heart of where sympathy held sway, Gotta find my destiny, before it gets too late." I'm not feeling that way right now, just letting you know where my brain has been before. And it's not just in the lyrics, it's the bassline of the song.
And, on a less depressing note, thanks for a good session today.
LT