Had my first session after three weeks on Friday. It was the same as every time before. Right before he leaves, I get anxious about it and think the weeks without him will be a disaster. Then it turns out to be mostly fine. Then when he gets back I seem to have forgotten that I'm really attached to him. Therefore, I don't feel like I can trust him anymore during the first session and that's all we talk about. I'm usually disappointed that I don't manage to talk properly, even though there might be loads to discuss from the weeks where he's gone. Then a few days later I freak out, call him, and the next time we see each other it's back to normal.