I have this complex where I constantly judge and compare myself to other more smart and capable people. It's reached such an extreme that I often find myself lingering on dumb and embarrassing moments that I've found myself in in the past and It gets to a point where I feel almost physical pain as my brain picks and tears through such stupid decisions. How do I get over this overwhelming anxiety of judgement and ridicule? I can't live up to my own standards and my confidence deflates in the snap of a finger if I get even the most minute out-of-place look by another human being. I ask myself "What am I doing wrong? Why did that person take the time to try and examine me and my actions?" It might have been just a random glance at me and the logical part of my brain wants to admit that this is true but I can't help but feel like I am constantly judged by everybody and that what I'm doing in comparison to other people is alien or wrong and out of place. I have such a hard time making friends because I'm too worried that I won't live up to other people's expectations or that I won't be as smart as them. It get to an almost manic state of being; I almost want to call it paranoia. My face looks like as if nothing is wrong but in my head all of the alarms are going off as I rush to try and compensate for basic human interaction skills. After any conversation my brain is on fire trying to decipher if I said anything stupid or if I looked stupid, it gets overwhelming at times. A part of me thinks that this is just a phase as I'm only 19 but somehow I doubt I'll ever overcome this state of mind. Help?