Ugh, is that what it is? I've been trying not to say that word and staying logical about it. (The exception is when thinking of him as a friend, I do then say I love him because I think that's fair and accurate.) It just feels like an unhealthy obsession... If that's what love is I want no part of it. >~<

I gotta find a way to cope. I just don't know what a healthy way of doing so is. This can't be a good way of doing it. My usual method of distracting myself is no longer working because I'm bored with all of my current distractions and when there's downtime like at work or driving to work or attempting to sleep I get caught up. Removing him from my life entirely is just going to send me into a breakdown and would probably hurt him too which I'm trying desperately to avoid.

If someone knows of a way that I can detach in a healthy way, please... halp ;-;