I am so sorry for your loss. Last year, my mother died. She was having seasures, so I knew something was coming up. Then a couple days later, the private placement nursing home called me with the news that she had passed away. I was numb and I not feel anything at all. I thought something was wrong with me. It took me about a year to start feeling something about what happened. I now miss her more. I wish I was there for her when she passed.