I am sorry blue.
I know you loved your grandmother very much and she knew that too.
You took care of her longer than most could.

Hospice has a great grief support system. You can see a counselor for bereavement. They will support you and your family for up to 18 months.

please consider using their services.

They are paid a lot of money(by medicare and insurances)

to provide support in any way they are able to.

Not sure if this would help or not...they have a chaplin if you are interested, just ask the social worker.
bizi