Does that help? Sometimes, it helps to know what others are going through as a measure of what can be tolerated. I STILL look forward to life ahead because I dont KNOW what it holds for me. The curiosity of it intrigues me to think it HAS to get better. Was born very physically premature (2lbs 13oz) and know that my survival is a sign of my ability to overcome. And so I shall... how about you? :-)