The Thanks is for the statement you made:

*i'm not going to commit suicide ( sorry if i worried you )

I don't know your situation, so it would be unfair of me to assume your ability to tolerate and endure. I will tell you though that EVERYONE has SOMETHING to contribute in this world. One of the favorite things my Dad taught me (and I tell to others) is to look for even the most insignificant positive attribute and focus on it when you feel mad/upset/disappointed in the world. Serves useful in relationships, interacting with people, and life in general. If you dont see even the smallest positive attribute, your life will become overcome with negative. Sometimes it takes a lot of effort, but THAT is what your life becomes driven by... the determination to find A positive. While it may not seem like it at the moment... you contribute SONETHING positive. You've helped someone think, laugh, feel, imagine, or inspire. I bet if you think about it, you'll think of one. And when you do, focus on THAT, no matter how insignificant it may seem. :-)