Maybe part of the reason was for my ex. I like to make her laugh. However, it is always strictly through conversation. I do not act the way I did at the bank. I was not thinking much about what I was doing. It kind of just happened. Only later did I realize what I had done. It was a very uncharacteristic, implusive thing for me to do.

Lately I have become an agressive driver, hypersexual, and now compulsively starting to spend money that I do not have to spend. These are typical symptoms for me. I have been staying up to the early hours of the monrning, and then getting up in one case 3 1/2 hours later. The part I do not understand is that I still can be depressed in the morning. I also have been finding myself gesticulating energetically when I talk. This is new for me. I do not have the racing thoughts yet. I have been at times I have been much more agressive online. I think this is enthusiasm, but some may call it something different.

I think I have mentioned this elsewhere, that I have actually been frequenting a dating site that is used by people who lets say are very adventurous in and out of bed. The sex some get involved in is way over the top. This is the first time I have done this. Normally I would consider these people doing things that are “crazy” bordering on the bizzare, and avoid the website. There are even people much older than I participating in this website.