I am not doing as well as I thought. I wasn’t feeling well after a long run this morning, and went to the doctor (pcp). Yep, it’s as I thought. I have a UTI and had a 100 degree fever. He prescribed me an antibiotic that fights most bacteria causing UTIs and told me they would call me in a few days if that antibiotic does not fight the bacteria the culture shows is making me sick and if I need a different medication.

Then I got a HUGE lecture on my weight. It seems I was in there in June for a wellness exam, and I lost more weight since then, and I was already underweight back in June. He gave me all this nutritional info, but IDK, I really don’t feel like gaining the weight back. I am exercising too much for the calories I eat, long distance running but not consuming the diet for it. This is usually the way my ED usually works. I get diagnosed with anorexia, purging type (through exercise). I hadn’t realized I has lost so much weight in a short span of time. The ED part of my brain was happy, of course. While the logical part of me is screaming, “You know this is not good. You’d tell any other woman at this weight to gain weight and get into ED treatment! What’s wrong with you?!”

Ugh!