Not raining on my parade. It's important. Here's my plan:

1) Keep at therapy. The root issue is my dad who has been dead almost 20 years. I've decided I'm ready to accept and let go and it's going really well.

2) I'm in an online support group for narc abuse survivors. Seeing how often the stories are the same makes me almost feel pity for the people who have hurt me. Forever limited by their condition. I said almost.

3) Listen to my spouse and bestie who can spot a loser from a mile away. It's time for me to grow up and stop doing everything the hard way.

4) Pick up kickboxing again and pole dance more. Both good for self esteem.

5) End any relationship that doesn't make me feel good. Burn those bridges and dont look back. Take the time and energy to do something positive instead.

Today is the end of that cycle and the beginning of a new one. I've been waiting for this moment my whole life.