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Originally Posted by PattycakePancake
So similar. If something makes a weird noise, I automatically think it's going to blow up. During my first psychotic break when I was 14ish, I debated on telling my family what was wrong. It happened whenever my cousin was over for the summer. I was afraid of what they would say because stigma is bad, but also at the time I definitely didn't think anyone would believe me because I didn't think it was me being psychotic since I legitimately thought I was possessed. My cousin convinced me to say something. I'm embarrassed about it. If someone asks my dx I say depression now because I learned people get freaked out if I say schizoaffective bp type. I used to have a habit of telling people I just met about my mental illness. I have poor social skills in general. Also, some people think if you have a mental illness that you're dumb. Just because I don't talk much doesn't mean I'm not thinking. I've had hurtful things said to me pertaining to mental health. Like people referring to the behavior hospital as a nut hut. I see people say like on FB about "lol who let so and so out of the nut hut" then in another post say how they have anxiety. I believe everyone has a mental illness some time on in their life. Actually, my psychiatrist said a lot of the population ends up taking antidepressants by the time they're 50. So yeah, I have a "severe" mental illness, but it's well managed. Genetics and trauma did this, so I gotta take medicine my whole life but that's okay. At least I can get help. If the stigma can lift, I'm sure a lot more people will want to seek help. Sorry that I went off on a tangent. LOL
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You cant talk to me anytime hey I have a fear of my hot water heater people around this place look at me like I got a screw loose but when it use to come on I would not only get anxious but it would develop into a panic attack the humming noise just bothered me I would even at times and break down and cry because of that stinken noise but now I use my headphones and put my radio on if I have to funny thing is sometimes I can deal with it and other times I cannot ,my friend told me my fear is stupid.I dont make fun of her fears.she is suppose to be my friend,I love her dearly but sometimes she can put her big foot in her mouth,just because she doesnt have anxieties I guess she thinks my fears are odd. I had server fall about 13 years agoi had hit my head on our entertainment center the glass was every where.I had blood all over my shirt plus the back of my head was bleeding so bad,I can remember it was on a Tuesday morning at 330,I was in the hospital for about three days then they put me in a stinken nursing home.They had no compassion there at all they could care less if I had anxieties.One time I was gagging the nurse came in with a bowl she threw it at me and said use this.I gag so very easily.I was there for almost three month is was awful. My parents wanted to put me away I wasnt going to fall for that.SO I have a terrible fear of falling ,they had to put staples in my head I didnt even know that they did it.My doctor told me that is causing my moods to be worse.I have bad yelling spells at times and believe me I have gotten into trouble because of my yelling I keep telling my land lady I cannot help it it is part of my mood disorder she just doesnt get she even threatened to evict me if I kept it up.Mental illness around this place doesnt matter but a physical one does.I am sorry but that just isnt right.You are so right just because we have a mental illness people tend to think we dont have any brains.I hear you dont look like you have a mental illness what the heck is that suppose to mean????