Hi,
Thank you for sharing your experience. While reading, I felt that I could relate to the events you wrote.
I've been there too, so many times. I made so many mistakes and took very
irresponsible decisions. For some reason, people don't always see how far off I am when this happens.
I'd love to read your blog. Is this link safe even though it starts with http instead of https (S for a safe connection.)
I hope you are safe and will feel better soon.
Take care