Hello there,

Just so you know, there may be some language mistakes because I'm not a native english speaker.

Well I just wanted to talk about myself and my problems for a change... I've been skipping work for 7 days now. I'm more exactly about to skip my 7th day of work today. Lately I've been used to this nasty routine that consists in sleeping all day long and living during night time, facing the blue light of my computer and TV. And I've been doing this for way more than 7 days now...

Just ten minutes ago I was in the bakery down my street, looking for something to eat after a night of Netflix bingewatching, while business workers were taking their first coffee of the day, ready to go to work, all tucked in their formal tie and suit pants. I refuse to have this life style so many people has, and the worst part is that they feel good about it. Giving your soul to a big company, being at your worplace 15 minutes in advance, having to wake up before sunrise, sitting on a chair all day long, spending a life time at the office, using your remaining brain cells for someone else's profit.

The bureaucratic lifestyle isn't even the cause of my problem, I've already tried different types of workplaces. I actually just feel empty and useless and tired and lost at the moment and I don't feel like going to work, and the only thing that bothers me at this stage is that it makes me lose money. At first I felt bad for the team and for my supervisor who trusted me... But now I just need to get over it and leave as soon as possible. So two days ago I resigned. And now I have one month to figure out what I'm going to do with my life. But this part is ok.

I'm just concerned about this behavior of chronic absenteeism that I always had, in every ****ing professionnal experience I was involved in. And I wanted to know if some of you have already got througt this kind of mood when you feel completely exhausted and unable to exist outside of your comfort zone.

I'm a person who needs the sunshine to feel good. I'm not always out and about, but generally I love spending summer days outside but these days, I spent them hidden under my blanket. Waiting for my mind to be ready to face this empty existence that is reduced to eating, smoking pot, and consumming internet debit.

Tell me I'm not the only one