Just a casual thought about this exchange. It's about the future and about something that may or may not happen from your perspective (i.e. you may not ever ask to take the stone again), but it strikes me as a relational thing where you do two things: 1) try to nail down his position so you can inform your own (and I don't mean this in some calculated weird way, this is quite normal) and then 2) construct two possible meanings, one that seems unlikely to me (that he was revisiting in some way his earlier promise to give you the stone) and the far more likely, at least as it seems to me from reading the words you wrote.

I feel like, could be wrong, that you have in previous sessions tried to clarify certain say policies with him, such as what a "crisis" means to him and the like. This feels to me like a pre-commit in the sense that I would feel cornered in a particular situation because it's hard to know the context of the future hypothetical because, well, it's the future. It feels like a negotiating strategy that I wouldn't want to get into. And the other thing about it is that this kind of future discussion imposes something artificial on not only where we are in the present but also on the organic nature of the relationship.

It seems like it is anxiety, as in you don't want to make a mistake in the future and be "rejected." I'm not trying to downplay how bad rejection can feel, I don't like it either, but I think you're kind of setting yourself up for it when you get into this kind of future negotiation and strategy. Because if you get to that future point where the hypothetical might apply (which is why your T's response to you was great), most likely both people will see it differently in the context of a present situation. The other alternative is to be present in what you've been given now and should you want something in the future, ask for what you want in the moment. Maybe it feels like a bigger risk, but I think it is actually less risky.

So you left with two "possible" interpretations of what he meant, where one increases your anxiety right now because maybe he doesn't really want to give you the stone even though he promised. Why not take what he said back when at face value? My guess is that maybe you didn't realize at the time there were two possible interpretations, but it might have helped if you did to ask him in the moment. Or maybe you did recognize the possibilities in the moment but were afraid to ask.

I may be assuming too much about your goals in therapy, but I wonder what it would be like for you if your sessions were less about the past (sessions) and less about the future, and more about the present (like MC in the recent happenings)? That section of your session seemed really "juicy" (as my T likes to say), with a lot of emotional connection with your T and self understanding.

I'm not criticizing, please understand, just giving feedback in my straight kind of way. I so respect how you put yourself out there in these write ups, they are great writing, and your progress each session is a given.