It’s not even 10:30 AM, and I am feeling depressed and anxious. I couldn’t go on my morning walk/run, and I have a UTI. I am on antibiotics for it, but they are not working yet. I have a fever and am tired and had a panic attack, probably at not being able to exercise, even though the doctor chewed me out about my weight yesterday. I apparently have a BMI of 17, which he said is significantly underweight, and that I need to cut back on the exercise (as if I don’t know that already). Stupid ED was happy at the drop in weight. I am not sure if I will mention it to my pdoc or not tomorrow. I called and got my pdoc appointment tomorrow changed to a phone appointment. He does phone appts. for up to 3 visits before you have to go back in person; it is your choice though.

I am depressed today, especially over our finances, anxious too. I didn’t want to get out of bed this morning, and I slept 11 hours. I wished last night I could just go to sleep and not wake up. Not suidical really, just wishing for a natural occurrence I want to go back to bed and probably will after lunch.