try to calm yourself sparrow.... you think best from a calm and centered disposition....

its likely that no one is out to get you.. but you may feel fear and distrust right now....

breathe deep and collect your thoughts..... what do you believe is best for you?

a therapist is recommended but i dont feel qualified to advise on which? so, can yo read some of the other posts or review the information here at PC?

http://psychcentral.com/search/?Matc...=Psych+Central

good wishes to you....