I am feeling depressed.

I don't really want to talk about it- I have a grounding box in my room (which I use for when I am anxious or upset), and their's a certain item I want- and I can't get hold of it

my friend has one but it holds too many memories for her so she won't part with it.

I do understand, but... it would have been a nice adition

(and I can't just buy one, it would look strange)

I may post a thread about it at a later date.. I don't know