Not sure exactly where to post this, sorry...
I have weird dissociative issues i think? Its rarely what I hear described, like a viewing my own body outside of it or just not feeling entire parts of my body (the former has never happened to me). Instead, when I get super stressed out, I forget things. I forget what was making me stressed, what I was doing/talking about, basic things about myself and the people around me. I just become really confused and lost feeling.

Other times, like now, I get this weird feeling in my chest. It's like a sign something bad is going to happen. Whenever it happens I'm not really myself. Like I'll act totally different, and then afterwards have trouble remembering what I did and said. I know the memory is THERE but its like a blocker is there, stopping me from accessing it. I don't think its DID, especially since from what I understand alters are more reaccurring and can communicate with each other.

I do have some repeating "personas", 2 in fact. Others are weird and fleeting but in the moment I'm totally lost and cant connect to my real self at all. A close friend of mine has tried to get me to, but its like I dont know who I am at all in that state.

Its just weird memory issues and issues with who I am, but I dont know if its some type of dissociation or delusion or not. Any thoughts?