Something one of my late relatives had said back when they were dying was "I'll return to haunt you, if you don't carry on with your life." To me, that was more testamemt to having witnessed themselves what it's like to watch someone they were close to, not do just that. It's a matter of honoring their memory.

It really, really stinks to live through being beside someone with a terminal illness. It's an emotional rollercoaster ride.

Just know that you aren't alone.