((((((((((((((Kalamity_Jane)))))))))))))))))

Everyone's experiences are so different due to different experiences in their own lives. I think here at PC, we try to accept everyone where they are right now.

My T has said that she has talked with parts that are in this time warp thing (my words, not hers). She said "I" talked about someone who, according to the knowledge I have, has been dead for nearly 20 years and yet apparently the conversation she had with this part was a present day conversation with that part only from long ago, stuck in that time (not sure if that made sense). Sometimes in T, I have found myself in corners with a blanket over my head, or hiding in her closet but I've always found myself in places like that so I think it's normal for me .

My T and I email almost daily, but once in session she told me that she had had a conversation with "me" and mentioned something about computers and email. She said I told her I had no idea what that word computer or email were. She said she tried to explain it to "me" but apparently I thought she was crazy lol. So I understand what you're saying.

But, there have been times where I will read someone's post, get ready to respond and then see a post that "I" have written and I am thinking what the heck, I haven't posted yet!

I have had a couple experiences where I have been aware as I was gone, but it's not the norm for me, though I want so desperately for it to be . One time I felt like I was sitting in the back of my head and watching me running outside playing. This was last year but it was such a shock that I still remember it. When I read about other people knowing, it makes me wonder if that's what it's like. That experience was amazing to me. It was like I was watching a different little girl just running and playing. Just amazing being able to experience that. But I've only had it happen a couple times.

I don't think you're weird at all. I dare say no one else here will either. My advice is to just stick with your T. Mine knows more about me than I do. Mostly I learn about other parts from her and because of that, as I become more aware of what goes on around me, I'm starting to see patterns of parts (if that makes sense).

It's a slow process for me because I'm a scaredy cat. I don't do change well (even good change takes a huge toll). I denied, and still often deny my life and what happens in it. Because of that, I think it takes longer for me to get from point A to point B in therapy. T said it's okay though. She said my whole life is about secrets (including secrets held from myself) and it's not going to go away overnight.

As you trust your T more, you'll make the progress needed to get to where you want to be in life. Hang in there. PM me if you want.