I get that shifting my focus would probably be healthier than obsessing over something I can't control; however, it feels like by doing so, I'll just be burying my head in the sand and ignoring the frightening reality of the situation for the sake of temporal expediency. I think that is one of the reasons I searched previously so hard for a partner--to one distract myself by focusing on the needs of another, and two to ensure that I'm not wasting my life worrying about what I'm missing out on.