In my own experience of therapy, avoiding topics has never been useful to me. Oftentimes I've needed to "talk about talking about it" because of the various odd ways I collect evidence or how I see things.

I think one can find new reasons to stay alive other than fear. Finding joy or peace is not a bad goal for therapy. Although I do apologize as a 'Merican for our triggering the entire world with numerous positions and activities that objectively have made the world a worse place for all. The current state of jack@ssness has been a topic of my therapy from the beginning.

The way it has affected me, as a trauma survivor, is that I'm also more afraid of dying. I think many trauma survivors, especially of s@xual trauma, believe they were going to die during the course of it, particularly if it was prolonged or chronic. And when lots of media attention is on certain politicians who act like gaslighting, insulting, I-can-do-whatever-I-want dangerous fools, it's sort of like seeing your abuser(s) on TV every day. My T says that many of his female trauma survivors feel exactly like I do.