Today is my 26th day that I have not had a drink. I too, used addiction to cover up feelings. I tell people now that I am sober that when I drank - alcohol could "cure" any emotion in my mind. I drank because I was happy, sad, mad, hurt, scared, and stressed. Then I developed a crazy computer addiction. It was weird. Almost like a I had to have an obsession with something to cover up the other.
Totally understand where you are coming from.
I never joined AA just because of my time schedule but, I did read about their program. I found the 24 hour thing to be helpful. I got rid of my computer addiction. I don't limit myself to anything but I try to do everything in moderation. It's kinda like a diet of the brain. If I was having cravings to drink or obsess on the computer, or whatever else, I would stop, step back, take a look, curve my behavior to something healthier and tell myself "24 hours". Before you know it, that 24 turns into 48 or 72.
Just a thought. Hope it helps!
And I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND WHERE YOU ARE COMING FROM!
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