I have NO self esteem. I have bought every self help book, looked online of ways to help and I cant love myself like i so desperatly want to. My step mom recently told me to look in the mirror every morning and say i am beautiful out loud. She told me this a month ago, but every time i try the words cant come out and i cry uncontrollably. I just decided to write it in lipstick on the top of the mirror, which that still made me cry and was difficult to do. But every time i went into the bathroom and saw my message to myself I cried, so i wiped it off. My Therapist told me a few days ago that i was very intelligent, and i cried so hard. I don't even know why she said that, because i didn't say anything intelligent while talking to her. I have also lost 65 lbs in the past year and you would think i would be more self confident, but all I see when i look in the mirror is a person who still looks like she ways 210 lbs. I feel like the weight i have lost is not enough. All i want to do is love myself and see myself the way my husband sees me, but i cant.