M,

We connected today. Even though it was a shock you wrote about me on Reddit, it humanized you and I realized you do listen and remember from the name you picked). It gave me just the tiniest bit of courage I need to go on and keep faith. It's so ironic, really. I feel close to you for really the first time, bc the facade of perfect control has a chink in it that lets lamplight through, if not sunlight( and of course never, never candlelight).