Yellow_fleurs, you are very welcome here in the BP zone, please don't worry about that, ok? You've got a lot to sort through and it can be a challenge. Remember that symprom control is the objective, regardless of dx, whether that be a given med(s), therapy, DBT, what have you. Or most likely a combination of approaches. Wishing you the best luck in that. Hope you feel better after getting outside and doing some stuff -- with maybe some meditation and visiting too.