The IFS structure came so natural to me when my counselor introduced it to me.

I can see and connect with different parts of me easily, looking at them through the lens of IFS. It’s a realness that I’m trying to find words for.

When I’m in session with my counselor, I can talk freely about what other parts of me think and feel. There is really such an openness that I don’t feel anywhere else. In that place it feels so real. It’s a good feeling of being able to be truthful and honest.

This past week was a time like that and it lingered with me after I left and came home. I woke up with it still with me the next morning. The lightness and connection that that part of me, that came so up front, felt talking with my counselor.

As my day started, that feeling started to fade. I actually began to feel embarrassed, remembering things that I said and the connection that I felt. I was wondering if he thought I was really psychotic and loosing it.

I don’t know what I’m looking for.

I guess I was just wondering if anyone else felt like that.

It probably doesn’t have anything to do with
IFS, but for me it helps me to really see them and they feel “real”.

I think it’s kind of scary to think that they are only “real” in that place and time. Real as in being able to be heard and understood. Validated by someone else besides my counselor.

This might just be a weird ramble.

I was just curious if it was just me.