Ugh, T. It felt incredibly ironic that you cancelled the session this week. After last session where we spent quite a bit of time on reflecting how a possible inpatient stay would impact our dynamics. And you kept wondering whether I would 'use' being inpatient in order to keep you distant and at bay afterwards. Sorry, this is weird. You are creating some distance here by cancelling sessions.

And you better be prepared for the holy wrath of cinnamon_roll next week. For leaving me hanging in mid-air (yes, my rational side knows you were ill....). This is new. Actually feeling the anger, and the rage about the abandonment. Which means you are safe enough. Last T wasn't. Never got to the anger even though she did everything to provoke it. So, even though this feels strange and scary I have enough trust that we can deal with this. Hopefully. Just don't cancel next session as well, or else...