I agree that your pdoc is pondering between types I and II right now. I recently got medical records from my old pdoc (retiring, saw her for 10 years), and on some of my visitation sheets, she would write bipolar I, II? so she was pondering in between until I had a super bad manic episode in her office & waiting room, at which point she definitively put her diagnosis as bipolar I on her visitation sheets.

Any type of bipolar is a lot to deal with in my opinion too, whether it is Type I, Type II, or Type NOS.