Over 100 realtors and prospective buyers through the house today in a three hour window. I won't leave the property as my dog needs to be safe as well as the contents of the house. Don't trust nobody with nuttin'!!

But now that they've been gone for a bit I wonder just who the hell was talking out of my mouth answering questions to all these ppl about this place I've rented for six years.

My anxiety has been overwhelming lately and reduced me to immobility on Tuesday. Can barely get anything in and I highly doubt digestion is taking place.........sorry tmi.

I know that in my current state I couldn't have possibly dealt with so many strange ppl in my home. I now wonder what part took over this and am grateful that they stepped in.

Had phone calls from ins. companies and my dis. claim ppl to contend with while all these ppl were around. Chaos!!!!! Somehow numbers and messages were taken and my desk has a very organized accounting of today's calls and other matters...............which I am completely unable to do at this time.

I confuse the hell outta myself sometimes. At least pdoc with return call late Tuesday night said that he gave me an A+ for handling the day (crying for three hours straight, shaking from anxiety, teary all day and weeping off and on, etc) and gave me great reassurance that he is behind me in this and wants me to take additional medications for a few days to help the system get a little reprieve from this unrelenting anxiety. That really helped me so much to know despite feeling completely lost and out of control I still managed to handle the day in a way that was acceptible and applauded by my pdoc.

Guess an old dog can learn new tricks.