Ugh, I took my morning meds and, geez, even those are a lot, especially considering I'm on this giant capsule of an antibiotic right now. Then, I take stuff in the afternoon, vitamins before dinner (and the short-term antibiotic), and bedtime meds. Some days I feel like I do nothing but swallow pills all day, and it is frustrating.

I have tried going off some meds, but then I do even worse and wind up close/in the psych hospital. Though of course I have my manic/hypomanic moments when I convince myself I'd be better off or weigh less without meds and stop taking them a week or so, but hubby usually notices, and he does not like full-blown manic episodes. He doesn't seem so concerned about depressed episodes and even seems to like me best hypomanic, but he wants me on meds when completely manic. Otherwise, he is against me taking medication which is contradictory, go figure. Mostly, my husband is pretty supportive on other things just doesn't have a good understanding of how bipolar works and that hypomania even exists, and we tend to have different parenting styles, which we really need to work out. But on issues that are deep (PTSD stuff, bad to no real relationship with my dad, he is there for me, trouble making friends, problems our daughter has at school because she is so quirky, things do pop up at school quite frequently).