My son shouted at me on Sat. because I was tired and they asked me to babysit. I did call them on the cell alot but I wanted to know when he was going to come home. I know it is partially my fault and we have not spoken since Sat. He is still mad at me and will not apologised to me for shouting and saying mean things. I tried to talk to him today about it and he will not budge. He can't be around me because of all the eggshells he has to walk on. He did not believe my therapist when he went w/me to understand my illness because she was on my side. Now he has found a baby sitter so I won't have to do it. I did tell him that when I stayed real late at night I couldn't take my nightime meds because I don't hear anything and it would kill me if I didn't hear those kids and something happened to them. I am so upset and hurt. His dad left me because of this illness and thats why I don't make any friends. I'm so afraid of rejection. Even my mom and sisters don't understand me. I'm all alone in this world and I'm not sure what to do. what should I do? please someone help me pj56