Getting back on topic though, before I set myself off on a disney roll , if they ever have to deal with me here and I have a meltdown over it, I am not trying to be a difficult mare, my meltdowns tend to come from a place of insecurity/fear, so if the mods are in any doubt about "is she trying to be a difficult mare" it's best to assume I'm feeling severe anxiety/insecurity and if they have to get into a discussion with me about what I did, stay calm, don't try and fight the fire with more fire (as it were) or in other words don't come back at me yelling at me or anything like that , the alternative to staying calm is to leave me be to calm myself down without giving my brain the chance to latch onto anything they're saying and twist it round to mean something they never said, because when my anxiety is severe I do read more into what people "say" than what they actually mean

And again, because I hate the number three, here's another of those faces (oh and another thing, try not to put three of anything in a PM to me when I'm anxious, because of how much I can't deal with the number three)