One day at the time. Lithium got me out of a three year depression, but created a state of blah.
I wasn't depressed, but couldn't be myself either.

It is my layman opinion the every bipolar sufferer should try an AD.
I never wanted to try one because the horror stories in the 'net.
My shrinkette wanted to try one from the get go. I refused. Specially SSRIs.
Wasted three long years for being stubborn and ignorant. Paying attention to others.
However, It came a time that I had absolutely nothing to lose by trying one.

First AD, Paxil, the big bad wolf that ruins your kidneys and tyroid, did the trick.
What are my kidneys an tyroid worth for if I'm not happy?. To exist?. Suffering?.

I'm doing very good now. Even better now that i'm flushing the lamotrigine/lamictal down the toilet.
It's the toilet that gets blurry eyes, lacks memory, slow reacts, gets confused, and lacks the power to make desisions now.

But everybody is different. I know people here that vouch by lamictal. It's just not for me.