Been a long time since I've posted on here. I've been so busy with getting out of the military and moving... I've finally started to feel like I know what's going on in my life after 2 months of being back home in Cali. I'm not sure what I should do right now I see my tendencies starting to creep up and i cant stop it. I hear myself and seeing the things I do but I cant control myself. I'm not sure if my meds are working or if it's just the stress of everything. I felt like I was finally happy, starting to move on from my divorce, being happy with my gf, actually involved in social activities... and now I've just started to self destruct. It's difficult getting appointments with the VA or to even get a doctor for meds, I'll be out of mine by the end of the month and it's going to take at least a month after my therapy appointment next week to see someone for my meds. I'm not sure what to do I've brought it up before and was told theres nothing they can do.