I don't know if it's connected with bipolar or not. I've always had a lack of confidence, especially once I started elementary school. And it got worse & worse in high school even though I graduated as class victorian, and I knew by 10th grade it would likely happen. There was just one girl (thes alutlatorian) I had to really outdo, but she was very involved in band & basketball, plus she was Morman, so she was going to worship events all the time, and I think that affected her grades.