I am still a teenager but I have stopped feeling anger due to my delusions... and yeah while I did use to have fights with friends, it was just typical high school maturity level fights, like 'you run I chase' type of fights. Here high school ends at 10th grade so I was like fifteen when I graduated high school. Had a fight with friends whom I gave all my love to and didn't receive a bit back. As I never hung out with 'em (a massive thanks to my parents) they never really classified me as someone special even though I did.

Now I am a bachelor's degree student (B.Sc 1st, age 17) and I still don't have many friends and still haven't hung outside of the campus with anyone. My life's a failure in every aspect due to my super, super crazy mother. I wanted to own a Royal Enfield or at least a bike like this one. Hang out with friends and hit on girls, all that typical teenage stuff. Perhaps be even in teenage drama like friend's breakup or mob attacks over girls. Nope, you're not that lucky, despite being a brilliant science student.

I am brilliant, brilliant as a cognition patient can be. But years of sitting home in an abusive environment really took toll on my intelligence. Now I can no longer be a doctor, or an engineer, or a scientist. Had interest in all of 'em fields.