Asking me to hope and to trust is really easy when you're not the one who'd end up having to pick up the pieces again. Being cautious and protecting myself like this is the only reason I've survived as long as I have. Every time I've been let down before I had the consolation that at least I'd never given them everything. It's the thing that's kept me safe, and you're asking me to give it up.

Isn't being realistic and keeping a contingency plan the prudent thing here? Don't you want to know that even if you screw up (again) I'll be okay in the end?