I seldom have alters that are “living the moment” present....but I’ll have dissociative moments and flashbacks to that time period forgetting all things present momentarily.

But presently, to forget is normalcy for me. Anything a few hours old fades off into the darkness. Sometimes it feels like I’m walking through life holding a burning candle for light and everything that is available to me is limited by the amount of light lit by the burning candle.

It is frustrating enough...if it weren’t for the fragmented mind...I’d swear I’d almost have near a photographic memory....But it’s all in bits.