I'm planning on starting the meds tomorrow... if I can. I screw up everything. An associate not friend associate says I need to get over it and accept the diagnosis. This is coming from someone who too has bipolar wtf! She actually said it's not like it's forever. WTF! What planet are you on. It is for life???? She wants to go to the bipolar support group I go to monthly. I said no I can't go if she goes it would be too hard for me as I talk like I do on here openly and she knows very little. So looks like my monthly support is gone. There is only 1 group in my area and I can't travel. I'm frustrated. I just want people to talk to. I am sick of pervy guys. I want to talk to my friends but I think I have burnt my bridges with them. They are online but not even looking at my messages. Feel like such a screw up.