I'm sorry my words weren't understood in the spirit I sent them. Let me try again.

My referring to the "but it's only for me" means that the patient is so heavily invested in their own problems, they don't realize that if a T opens emails up to one, they need to for everyone. What you said is in agreement to that thought about the patient only thinking of herself, indeed, they are unable to focus on much but their own pain and suffering. I'm not saying this is bad, no, just that it happens. The T must think and consider all his/her patients.

I am sorry that you feel punished, but you aren't being punished, you haven't done anything "wrong" in my eyes, but need help to hold those parameters that every patient fights against. T has to hold them for all patients, until they are strong enough emotionally to do so also. It's a terrible feeling, I know. What your T will show you, I hope and am pretty sure of, is that these parameters though they feel like something bad from your past, are not from the past but from now and that your T is showing you the good side of it all, and how healing can come from this.

I am sure your T understands that you didn't call and that it was very hard for you not to do so. You don't have to tell T everything, some things are "given." I'm proud that you are able to still call when in dire need.

The place to start on needing payment/coverage for all a T gives... wow... I think there is no ONE place, but a revolution like you said. However, there are so many ppl needing basic coverage and yet the insurance companies win... It needs to beging, legally, with our our State Senators and Congress, I think. I think again we agreed but with different statements on this.

TC! (((hugs)))