PS: I've tried this "focus on the present" practice (called meditation), to maybe help me stay in the outside world instead of disconnecting... it is easy to sit with an empty mind but it is not easy to allow myself to fully immerse in sensation because then the pain comes too. Recently it's been able to ease into just sadness but it can still be pain. When it's pain, I cannot stay immersed in the body. When I'm lucky and it's instead refined into sadness, it's manageable... Has anyone ever heard of this?