I felt OK today, but overexercised a lot again. Anyone else here with that problem? I ran an insane distance, walked a normal distance (but overheated, which is a no-no for a couple of these psych meds I take). I did a lot today. I don't know if it's the start of hypomania or not. The problem is I actually like the hypomanic phases of bipolar, very productive, no need for a ton of sleep, not doing risky stuff that destroys my life like full-blown mania, and depression is definitely the pits. But I think during mania and even hypomania, metabolism increases. There are times when I feel like I burn off things I eat very quickly. I did so much today that I didn't even have breakfast or any snacks today. One thing after another. I got a lot done, don't think I got enough sleep either. I woke up at 3 AM in a full-blown panic attack; I'd been dreaming about things connected to some of the PTSD. I've had a lot of PTSD-worthy instances for a lifetime, more than my share to be sure. I tried to calm & control my breathing like all my past therapists have advised. I don't see a therapist right now because of lack of money, and honestly, after over 10 therapists, I have never clicked with one, though some are admittedly better than others. Also, there comes a point where I've just felt "talked out".