Today was a bit better. Last night I was feeling really low and exhausted from feeling angry, but then a couple friend asked me if I wanted to go out for a drink. I haven't been letting myself drink on my own because I think I would be using it to self medicate, however tempting that is, but for a social reason felt it was okay. I limited myself to one drink, but I felt better getting out with friends, and if I am honest, think the drink took the edge off and calmed me down. Today I have been feeling kind of hyperfocused on my project, and a little anxious and irritable, but not so much I was uncomfortable. I am going to stay up and finish this paper tonight so I can knock it off my list. Nervous about meeting my coworkers tomorrow, but reminding myself it isn't that big of a deal. It's not like I am starting work yet.