I want to test the limits to see if you'll abandon me again. If I end up in the ER again will you decide you're in over your head and get rid of me again? I can't promise I won't do it again and I'd rather find out now than later.
Sometimes the only thing keeping me from doing it is that I'd get kicked out of the IOP. I've accepted that the IOP is conditional. I knew that going into it and I've accepted those terms. It's a short term program and I'm not attached.
I'm not giving them the same power to hurt me that I've given you.