I wonder could you be almost on the autism spectrum? My daughter is that way a LOT, and I think she just missed autism on the Asperger's side. She is not autistic, but she cannot handle social situations at all, especially things like "frenemies" (she is 10 yr. old) just hurt her feelings to her very core.

On the other hand, I am introverted, and I hate and suck at social situations. I'd rather not go to any at all except close family birthday parties my mom or sisters will throw for my daughter's cousins. Those are just attended by my parents (admittedly, I have no relationship with my father though now I am 99% sure he is un-diagnosed Aspergers, people realize within 2 minutes of talking to him that he is just not normal at all; everyone has thought this my husband, my sisters' boyfriends and husbands, 2 of my aunts' new husbands on going into their 2nd marriages), my sisters, my nieces and nephews, the 2 of my 3 aunts I get along decently with, and my grandmother. Other events, reunions, kid class birthday parties my daughter is invited to from school, social events my husband gets invited to (weddings & such), ugh. I am so anxious, nervous and panicky, just hate it. When it was the fashion in the mid-to-late 1990s, a couple of pdocs said I had social anxiety disorder. I think it's just anxiety & panic attacks in general and hating social situations.

I always worry and have worried about what other people think of me, even when I was in elementary school, I worried all the time about what my teachers and most of my classmates thought about me, and it has gotten worse with age. By high school, I worried what EVERYONE, teachers & all of my classmates thought of me. I have now forced myself into 2 social situations I can handle - a library book club (both men & women attend) and a neighbor book club (women only). I have a love of reading, so I have at least one thing in common with them. I also have a goal of being active in my daughter's school PTO all year, beyond the first meeting, which is usually the way it works with me even though the PTO meetings are poorly attended, 20 people or so, and that is counting the school principal, a teacher, and sometimes the school counselor if an upcoming event involves her, or in the case last year, after Hurricane Harvey, which affected many families with children attending my daughter's school. I also need to bite the bullet and attend a support group for bipolar/depression at a church near me (not religious, they just meet there). And I've found one of my high school classmates works and lives not that far from me. I graduated in a small class (109 students) from a small school and as a result knew most of my classmates. I often even ate lunch in a group including this woman when we shared lunch periods. My high school had 2 lunch periods, but they all encompassed 9th through 12th grade. I really want to reach out to this woman and go for coffee or tea or something, just meet and see how it goes from there, but I worry what she will think of me, and how I will handle myself, that I will just say stupid stuff...sigh. Just know you are not alone.