(((( Mary Alice ))))
I'm so sorry this happened to you. You are not a loser.
You still were there nearly a year and that's an accomplishment no one can take away.
I hope this is an opportunity in disguise for you. Once I had to turn down my first good job to get off public assistance because my babysitter quit before she started. I was devastated but it turned out that it made it so I was free to go to another interview and that job was a good one and a keeper. You never know how things might turn out.
I hope something comes along for you very soon.